Yesterday marked
Evie’s six month birthday in heaven. Not
a day goes by where I don’t think of that little girl. I wonder what she would have been like, what
cute little outfits we would have dressed her in, how she and Micah would have
gotten along. I wonder what she is doing
right now this very moment in heaven. I
wonder if she knows just how much I love her.
Of course, I’m not sure how it words in heaven, but I really hope she
somehow knows how often I think about her and how I love her so very much.
Some days, my
heart feels so heavy that I can almost feel it dragging me down. My desire to hold that little girl in my
arms, to see her, kiss her, snuggle her, is so overwhelming at times that the
pain seems to choke me.
I miss her. I will always miss her. Missing her is now an integral piece of me, a
piece that I will have to live with for the rest of my life.
Always in my heart <3
