A couple weeks
ago, during our church’s Wednesday night evening service, my Pastor was
speaking about the subject of Grace. He
illustrated the point of how, because of Grace, we belong in God’s family by
using his own family, a family to which, through my sister’s marriage and years
of fellowship, I am nearly apart of myself.
He said that, though his sons are grown and two of them have their own
families, holidays and family occasions always feel a little incomplete if any
of them are absent.
That particular
thought struck me to the core, because, for the rest of my life, no special occasion,
holiday, or simple family get together will ever be complete. There is a sweet little girl that is always
going to be missing from all of it.
Minus one
stocking at Christmas time. An empty basket
at Easter meant to be filled with plastic eggs encasing goodies. One less little person around the table at
Thanksgiving. Missing the cutie who
would probably have been the flower girl at my wedding (if I am lucky enough to
get married). Always missing…always
missed.
This is the
reason why all special occasions during the past several months have felt as if
there is a shadow cast upon them…none of them feel complete.
My 21st
Birthday will be here in a little over a week.
The day will also be Evie’s 8 month Heaven Birthday. People can ask me what I want for my
birthday, and I can honestly say nothing, nothing, at least, that they can give
me. What I want is for our family to
feel complete again. I want the
happiness and joy that comes from having all of our family members crowded
under one roof. But, I know that will
never happen here on earth.
Until we all are
reunited in heaven, it will always feel…incomplete.
